If you have been told that having doubts means you are a bad Christian, that teaching did not come from Jesus.
The biblical record
John the Baptist — who once leapt in the womb at Jesus' approach — sent messengers from prison asking, "Are you the one, or should we expect someone else?" (Matt. 11:3). Jesus did not rebuke him; he sent gentle confirmation.
Thomas refused to believe without seeing the wounds. Jesus did not lecture; he showed up and offered his hands.
The psalms include real anguish: "My God, why have you forsaken me?" (Ps. 22:1) — words Jesus himself prayed from the cross.
What Scripture actually warns against
Not honest doubt, but hard-hearted refusal to consider evidence (Matt. 11:20–24), and double-mindedness that wants God's blessings without trust (James 1:6–8). There is a world of difference between "I am wrestling with this" and "I have decided not to care."
The Orthodox lens
The Fathers describe the spiritual life as a journey with dark valleys. St. Silouan the Athonite endured years of spiritual desolation before the words came: "Keep thy mind in hell, and despair not." Mother Teresa's letters reveal decades of felt absence. The Church does not measure faith by feelings; it measures it by faithfulness.
A pastoral word
Tim Keller used to say: a faith without doubt is like a body without antibodies — fragile, and apt to collapse the first time real trouble comes. The faith that has wrestled is the faith that lasts.
Bring your doubts to Christ, not away from him. Talk to a priest you trust. Keep showing up — even when you don't feel anything. The Lord who met Thomas in his doubt is not less patient with yours.